Tag: Worry

I have anxiety!

There is a war waging silently in my mind every second of everyday.

Is that normal? Am I going crazy?

Am I just not letting go of my past or is it fear for my future?

Is it stress or am I depressed?

No one understands what is going on. I should just keep it to myself and it will eventually get better.

I constantly struggle with the thought that no one else is going through this and that I should just suck it up.

This isn’t just a story of how I overcame a situation. This is my life from day to day.

WOW! What you see is an incredible friend, a loving sister, or that great guy you work.

OR.. Do you see yourself?

It took a very long time for me to except that I had anxiety.

When I was in high school, I was busy. I was in band, choir, and I participated in other things when I could like drama. I didn’t feel stressed most of the time.

I hated how I just didn’t quite fit in anywhere. I felt like I had to be tough in order for people to take me seriously.

As a typical teenager I struggled with image and comparing myself to others.

My home life was practically nonexistent because I was so busy with band and my mother worked so hard to provide for me and my siblings.

Shout out to the single moms! You guys are amazing!

Then one day I was at practice for the spring musical and something went sideways..

Actually, I went sideways.

I had passed out and began to have a seizure.

I woke up clueless, surrounded be classmates, and just felt like I was going to die of embarrassment.

I continued to have seizures for roughly a year and had tests done and nothing ever showed up.

People started saying I was faking and that made my anxiety even worse.

It wasn’t until I went to a therapist that it all started to come together.

What is it they say?

You have to be willing to admit there is a problem before you can begin to fix it.

It took time but I learned how to better cope with my anxiety and I did quit having seizures and I managed to get through high school.

It was only the beginning though. Life was just getting started.

I have constantly struggled with anxiety.

In fact, just a couple weeks ago I found myself struggling to breath due to a panic attack but if you were to see me out and about you wouldn’t of known. Why would you?

People only see what you want to see.

Anxiety is a constant battle.

Tell me.. What do you see here??

I bet you don’t see anxiety and overwhelming doubt.

Of course you don’t. I am smiling.

No one wants to show weakness and wear pain on their face.

Do you ever notice when someone is struggling?

Be really honest with yourself.

Do you or someone you know fall into the category of having anxiety? Do you check the boxes for overthinking, being a people pleaser, or lack the ability to set up appropriate boundaries? If so, what can you do to help yourself?