Life is full of choices.
Some harder than others.
What to wear? What to major in? Who to spend your time with?
You have to trust that it will all work out…
Easier said than done, right?
When I was in high school, I had a plan.
I was going to be CEO of some company, somewhere and I was never going to have to worry about anything ever. Clearly, I had no idea what I was thinking. I started college with taking business classes and pretty much fell asleep in every class especially the math classes.
I ended up failing my first class ever and realized that this was going to be harder than I had intended.
By this time, my personal life had gone through the ringer.
My fiance had left me for someone who was more exciting, and I had become angry with every aspect of life. I had a dead-end job and no clear path. I felt like such a victim of my own life, but I learned later that I was in fact a terrible girlfriend and I can’t just show up and be amazing at math.
P.S. I am much better of a spouse now even though I have a lot of work to do still and I have learned that learning can be fun. **Except MATH!!**
Moving on…
I met someone!
Someone who made me feel special and led me to accept the gift the Jesus Christ offers us all. I was still angry but there was hope. I ended up marry this man.
Not so happily ever after
Six months in I discovered what someone (my husband) looked like on drugs. I couldn’t believe it. I had trusted him, and he had disappointed. I was so lost. I did what I felt was right and stuck with the marriage as he went through rehab. This caused us to move far away from family as an attempt to keep him sober…
Are you seeing where this is going??
He became abusive. Mentally and emotionally, financially, and finally physically…
He had managed to cut me off from everyone who cared about me and I couldn’t trust my own husband. I just knew I wasn’t going to survive this.
Then came a blessing in disguise.
He got me admitted into a psych hospital to stop me from leaving him, which is a conversation for another day, and it ended up being a place of refuge. He couldn’t get to me and I was able to plan my escape from the situation.
Why am I telling you this??
My life taught me that trusting someone is the hardest thing to do, if not impossible. In life, trust is broken constantly, and disappointments happen daily.
Whether it is the traffic on the way to an appointment or a friend backs out of plans at the last minute.
In a world full of imperfect people, can you trust anyone with your life?
You don’t have to go through what I have, to realize that you can’t. The only one you can truly trust is God. Is that easy? No but it is a lot easier to trust in Him than in this world full of broken people.
So how about you?
Do you trust anyone with your life?
No Solo Struggles 